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This artistic video was created with the intention of bringing empowerment and healing to all women who have been a victim to sexual abuse and to stop the stigma that we, women, are ‘damaged’ after traumatic experiences. This is for all the women who have struggled to feel safe, confident, sexy, and empowered in their bodies still living in a world created by their thoughts that they can never really live fully expressed or feel vibrant in their embodiment. Being a victim of sexual abuse myself and being held up by a man at gun point at the age of 12 I also experienced relationship trauma at age of 25 when my boyfriend hit my face to the floor and shoved me again a wall. I didn’t feel safe in my own skin for nearly 18 years and rejected my own feminine embodiment because of past pain and fear. This video allowed for me to heal even more deeply and to share this also brings up a little fear that I am not safe to share this much of myself , openly, and yet I still share and rise above in love. I know that , today I am safe in my own skin and my embodiment is what fuels my power so I will continue to share with you all the parts of myself because I know that I am actually sharing all the parts that exist inside of the collective feminine in every woman that are too afraid to be seen or spoken. There is great love and pleasure for you after sexual & relationship trauma. It starts with self-love & owning your majesty through reclaiming your body. I Love You, Josefina
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In this video I share how going through the escharotics treatment brought up all of my past emotional pain and trauma around my sexuality and the sexual abuse I experienced, and what the treatment was like for me. I also explain how the sacred sexuality helped me heal my relationship to myself and detoxed the negative thoughts, belief systems & perspectives I had been holding against myself due to past experiences with body shaming and sexual abuse so that I could feel safe again to reconnect to my body as a sacred temple of pleasure and love. The start of my Self Healing journey & letting go of all the things that i loved in order to heal1/23/2019 In this video I share with you about the treatment that I choose called Escharotic treatment, as an alternative treatment to LEEP and cryotherapy to heal myself from CIN III. I go into detail on how I incorporated an elimination diet- the foods I had to take out- and how alcohol played a big part in numbing as well as the discoveries I found about in regards to relating to my body and inner environment. Meditation became my medication and I began to reach for alternative modalities as ways to cope with the pain of my physical body as well as the mental pain since numbing out with food, sex, alcohol was no longer an option nor I was even aware that i was using it for that until I had to remove them all from my life for a year. These discoveries are one every woman can relate to and brought me on a journey of reconnecting to my body after I had a hit the floor moment in yoga class from being so consumed by fear and negative self talk. Tomorrow’s video I will share about what the treatment protocol entailed, how it forced me to take a look at how I really felt about my body and the way sacred sexuality came back into my life again so that I could continue transform the pain in order to experience pleasure during this process. Thanks for watching and pleasure share this video and subscribe to my YouTube Chanel if you feel inspired. Love, Josefina When I was diagnosed with CIN III and HPV 9 years ago, it hit me that the very thing that makes me a woman, my sexual organs and fertility, was at risk of being removed. The chances of mother hood and that choice were suddenly in the hands of doctors telling me that the only way to clear this is to remove small parts of my body and this still wasn’t going to guarantee anything. This was the solution doctors gave me- to cut out parts of myself in order to “cure” myself without ever knowing or addressing the ROOT cause of the issue and putting my fertility and future at risk at the advice of these male Doctors who were not thinking about my reality as a woman who would desire to have children in the future. That wasn’t even brought up for me to be educated on, it was more of a directive of “this is what you need to do if you want to be healthy” focusing more on removing the cells than an overall holistic approach to my overall health and well-being in the long run. What I choose to do was empower myself and take my life and body into my own hands and realized a hard truth: I was very disconnected from my own body. Watch tomorrow’s videos as I explain what lessons started to come forward for me with this life changing reality I was now facing and how I had to make radical lifestyle changes. Ladies , have you ever been diagnosed with HPV, CIN, HSV and are still working through how this has negatively impacted your mental and physical health? This video is created for you! I was diagnosed with severe high grade CIN III & HPV 9 years ago and thought my whole life was over. I was filled with so much shame and hopelessness when I got the news in my my twenty’s and the men doctors laughed at me when I choose to not go for the recommended treatment of cutting out chunks of my cervix which meant I would be 30% more likely to miscarry of one day I decided to be a mother. This still wouldn’t have solved the root problem and cause. Who’s laughing now and became a major pleasure Queen 👸🏽 . Happy to say after 2 years of a radical lifestyle change and devotion to self-healing I got to taste the sweetness of being liberated from this diagnose through all natural medicine. . Tomorrow I will share more about what this brought up for me and what was the first step I took to healing myself. I invite you to share this video and come back tomorrow for my next video. . I have decided to start sharing my story again as a way of offering women real juicy vulnerability and what a journey of carving out your own path can look like when you go with your intuition, change your belief system and reconnect to your body. Go to the link in my bio to set up a free consultation if you are a woman looking for support. Love, Josefina 💋🧞♀️ #womenshealth #hpvawareness #cervicalcancerawareness #alternativemedicine #selflove #selfhealing #sexualwellness #womensempowerment #femininepower #pussypriestess #findyourownway #liberation #freedom Am I really free or am I just telling myself I am? How a childhood trauma and media influenced me on a deep subconscious level that I had no idea was limiting me until my recent trip to Bali. (Video posted below) Have you ever seen those movies that are all about women traveling to foreign countries either alone or with a friend and they get kidnapped, attacked, drugged and end up in sex trafficking trade? They make whole series out them like the thriller “Taken” where his daughter gets abducted from her own hotel room and taken into the world or drugs and sex trafficking and the entire movie is about him searching and killing to find her all the while the other women suffer and are ignored during the process because we need to focus on the main woman of the story. I used to watch so many of those movies growing up, so did my sisters and my mom and it terrified us and excited us to watch it all at them same time. When is was about 12 years old I had my own “taken” moment when innocently minding my own business and walking home from school in broad daylight a Hispanic man jumped out in front of me and grabbed me nay the arm yelling at me to come with him into this underground garage. Shaken and stunned I had no idea what was happening but through a series of events and by the grace of god i had a moment to realize that i could fight back and took my chance so i kicked and pushed him and started to make my escape. As I looked back he pulled out a gun and pointed it in my direction so I zig zagged like hell and prayed for dear life this man wouldn’t pull the trigger. With tears streaming down my face and crying for help no one stopped to assist me and the man disappeared in the shadow of the garage to never be seen again. Karma is a bitch and I’m sure that man got his at some later point in life and that moment in time taught me that i could protect myself and channel my own inner warrior priestess. I have done years of personal development work clearing this emotional fear and resistance towards the masculine and to be honest I felt very clear and done with this situation. Fast forward to present day, I’m sitting in a cafe in Bali on top of a Mountain in Ubud looking out the windowless wall openings in the middle of the jungle with Moroccan hanging lights, giant stone goddess statues and Russel Simons sitting across from us in this dream like restaurant tucked away in the trees. There are people working on laptops, babies walking around, people laughing and smiling, and there I was sipping on my turmeric latte on the verge of tears as i realize my Women’s retreat is about to be over and I’m going to have to adventure the rest of this trip on my own in a foreign land as the ladies at the table are talking about the horrific real life situations that have happened to women they know of or have heard of here in Bali while on their own. I have traveled alone before but never completely alone and free without knowing someone at my next destination, ready to greet me. In that moment I was seeing my entire world through the eyes of that little sacred girl and lost my shit, i began to ball my eyes out and the unprocessed emotions that have been hiding way below the surface came forward. Thank you Mama Bali for your magical land and jungle medicine, I was not free, I was scared and keeping myself safe in a cage of familiarity for the fear that I would experience the same thing I had in my youth or even worse since I was the farthest away from home I have ever been without knowing a single soul. Who would come for me, at least in the movie she was on the phone with her dad and he came and fought hell to get her, but with my phone taken no one would know and that fear sent me into a down spiral that ultimately gave me an evolutionary opportunity that essentially set me free. I’m writing this from the terrace of a magical hotel tucked away in the heart of Canggu, a. City outside of Ubud where I don't know a single soul and had no hotel booking or idea where I would end up. I got lost three times on the way here which took me over 2 hours instead of the 45 minutes gps had said and I had to redirect myself without it, almost got into two mini incidents on my motor bike. It’s good thing I’m a great driver, rode motor bikes in college and have been to burning man 6 times where everyone drives crazy at night. I drive through the streets super present, and jammed out the entire way to bad ass tunes in my earbuds and I laughed and smiled at all my fears I passed and left them along side the road, on each turn i took making a ritual out of my whole journey here. Bye bye limiting reality! I moved right through them with grace and ease. I found this place through the help of google maps, god bless the internet and my international plan, the times we live in are so different than back in the day of when these movies were created and the truth is each person I met I have been so friendly and smiley with me. I cruised along in my black sequence top with a red skirt with side slits showing my legs the whole way. men would look at me and i would smile and the were happy and I didn’t get any low vibes from anyone. I mean they have so many statues of half naked goddess all around their city-I’m just a real life moving goddess on a motto bike and what I realized yet again is its all about energy baby. The times are changing, women are stronger and men can feel it so there aren’t these killers and predators out there waiting on every corner to come after us. When I went to burning man 6 years ago there was art piece that said “What would it be liked if women were safe in the world” and today I got to live that truth and feel the experience of being safe in a foreign country wearing exactly what i want and holding myself at a high level of divinity in my energy, creating safety within myself.  I felt so empowered, confident, safe, and alive busting through the fear game that had been subconsciously holding me back for decades and just like that the entire world became available for me and a new lifestyle reality was shown to me that I couldn’t fully imagine before. When I feel safe i feel free as a natural result. Liberation tastes so sweet. Sparked from that question burned into my brain, i took it one step further and switched it from a fear place to a place of love and began to ask myself “What would the world be like if women were free”...free from self judgement and shame, self imposed limitations and societal fears. What if women were free from the inner cages they put themselves into and were free in their expression ,their sexuality/sensuality, their voice, their power, what would the world be like if suddenly women were doing hip circles and rolls in the middle of the shopping isle just because it felt good in the moment? What if women no longer needed permission from their own inner critic or the outside world, one may think that this type of women would be dangerous. Many societies think it would be dangerous to have women in power and therefore keep their women suppressed, under resourced, and literally cut off their source of pleasure. I believe it would be heaven on earth with the feminine running wild spreading her light and beauty abundantly. Businesses would be more profitable. Governments would be more representative. Families stronger and communities healthier. There would be less violence - and more peace, stability and sustainability. I want more women to be their own version of a modern day Warrior Priestesses. When women are free and happy, they will know how to rule their own world and in turn create a better world for all with “fierce grace” as Ram Dass puts it. Think about being in the presence a beautiful , smart, confident, radiant and expressed woman- If you’re a man you want to be with her and if you’re a woman you want to be her as her higher self whispers “ She Knows She is Free” . The next day I went on an adventure to find this secluded black sand beach tucked away in a village that looked like nothing excited and was so inspired I recorded this video just for you all. If you can relate to this or have experienced this yourself comment below because this fear tactic to keep women from expanding into their greatness due to the shadow of the patriarchal masculine is an outdated story for all of us. Men are not evil, women are not weak and the truth is we get to create whatever reality it is we desire to experience in our life and its so much better tougher! So I end it with the simple cliche that hold so much truth which is “ choose love” loving thoughts about yourself, the people around you, the world, and the universe because it really is all here in service to you and let pleasure power your choices.
Thanks for recieving this piece of my heart & sending infinite blessing to you all! Xx Josefina  Into me I see 👁 #intimacy is not something that is experienced only in romantic relationships , it’s all my interpersonal relationships. If I’m in front of you, you have all of me and I receive ALL of you!
It’s the juice in every encounter and fuels loving connection that energizes the world 🌎 To be so real, raw, vulnerable and exposed in front of another gives the person a chance to see me- to see into the depth of my power, my heart, my essence. I pride myself on being surrounded by only relationships that FEEL GOOD through this consistent dance and practice of intimacy. As a result, the people around me rise and I get to experience all of them so that we all flourish in our loving! Sure there a million reasons why “ not now” we can tell ourselves that we’re not allowing ourselves to LEAN IN to another but truly it’s an illusion that keeps you blinded by the same story and the repeated experience with the feminine/masculine. How close do you actually allow others to get to you and is there a limit to how much you grant access? If so on what basis? Is it driven by your capacity to manage your own thoughts about yourself in the face of another? It can be extremely scary and vulnerable to be seen for that you are. Will they like what they see, do I like who I am, will they see I’m filled with excuses, shame, guilt,fear or that I don’t have all my shit together? Will I come off as too strong, confident, independent, intimating, too much x,y, z...and maybe I’m not really ready to be seen and close to another? The only way out of this illusion and story that keeps you limiting the type of soulful connections you are here in this planet to experience my beloved is through leaning into love. Knowing that you are already perfect and divine exactly as you are and by showing up in this embodied living love others can reflect back the light that is your inherent nature. Be unabashed my loves and become unleashed!!💃🏻🕺🏽#leanintolove #pussypriestess #dance #unleashed #partners #relationshipgoals #consciouslove #connection #friendship #vulnerability #beseen #welookgood #polarity  Masturbation is like sex light. All the pleasure none of the calories! Sex Magic (sometimes spelled sex magick) is any type of sexual activity used in magical, ritualistic or otherwise religious and spiritual pursuits. One practice of sex magic is using the energy of sexual arousal or orgasm with visualization of a desired result. -Wikipedia
When I learned about the power of sexual energy as creative force and how to cultivate and channel that energy I was skeptical at first but thought i would give it try. With an open mind and willingness to practice, I learned to marry my orgasmic energy with an intention to manifest what I wanted to bring into reality. This is how I was able to manifest my dream home in Topanaga California, made over $5,000 almost overnight to invest in my education and manifest men who worship me as a Goddess. 7 Steps on how to create M A G I C with a Solo tantric practice! (Once you get this going it will be easier to include this with a partner practice.) 1. Create a space where you are undisturbed for an hour. This is a time is for you to cherish yourself. Make this a sacred ritual: set the room up with candles and flowers; have your favorite music playing, i have a sexy playlist I put on that gets me in the mood as soon as I hear the first beat. This creates a juicy serene, sexy and sensual space. 2. Come into conscious breathing in a sitting position as you prepare to lay down. The breath allows energy to flow effortlessly throughout your body and between partners. The breath assists in channeling your sexual energy in the sex magic ritual. (To learn more about conscious breathing you may want to check out TantraNova’s Foundational Practices CD) or work with Kundalini Breath work. 3. Set an Intention! Reflect on what you’d like to create in your life, work, family, intimate relationship with yourself or with your partner. See yourself in full financial abundance and freedom. Give yourself time to become clear and allow the vision to activate. This is where the sex magic becomes ignited and connects the third eye to your sexual life force creative energy. 4. Raise your energy. Breathe your energy from your sexual center (pussy/pelvic area if your a man) up to your crown center on the inhalation and back down and out again on the exhalation. Touch yourself and keep a physical connection to your body as your arousal and pleasure increases. Keep listening to yourself body's wisdom and how it wants to be stroked. Keep breathing while circulating your energy within yourself. 5. Let the orgasmic energy flow without going straight into climaxing. While riding the wave of orgasmic flow, focusing on full body pleasure; not just one spot or a quick orgasm. This is is where you build up to an oceanic energy flow through your entire sensual system and activates your kundalini energy. Stay in that flow as long as you like and can. The ritual is particularly powerful if you don’t climax. This way the energy gets channeled into your creation and vision. 6. Slow it down! Ride your own edge, keep breathing and circulating within. You can start to feel deep ecstasy and even tingling sensations through out your whole body at this point. Raise your arousal level again and increase your breathing. 7. MAGIC! Allow yourself to go into full climax as you feel the bliss of receiving what your highest vision and desire is all streaming through your veins and body! Upon completion acknowledge to yourself or share with your partner how you feel and what’s shown up for you.  This morning, as I sat on my deck, I moved through my gratitude ritual and had a profound moment. As I was speaking out loud my thankfulness I awakened to the truth of the reality that I am now living in present day. Everything that I am so grateful for today were just dreams I had for myself a year ago that seemed so far away to me at the time. I recall vividly sitting on the floor of my vintage 1920's style bungalow apartment this exact time last year, putting together a big 20" x 30" vision board for where I saw my life going after The biggest heart break of my life!
I had fallen victim to my own victim story. Feeling like my entire life was dismantled, I was i a place of deep reflection and heavy doubt. The dreams I had flowing through me like a waterfall for who I wanted to be and the reality at the time that I was choosing were not a match! Each time I thought about "how" these big dreams of mine could possibly manifest, it brought up the bitter voice of my ego and inner critic; just waiting to give me reasons why it wouldn't happen for me, just like my relationship. I had a very disempowering script running and what was worse was that i was allowing it to create my reality. The more I allowed myself to dream, the less the voice spoke and more power/energy I gave to my dreams. The key for me was this: whenever I felt even a bit inspired and joyful I would go through magazine and create. I sat down for 2 months and created, but only when I felt like what I wanted was 50% believable and attainable. Why did I do this? Because if I do it when its not believable then I am creating more resistance to actually getting what I want and it does more harm, sending mixed signal to the Universe of what I want. I mean I really went for it, dreaming of being in Glamour & Vogue Magazine, traveling the world as an international speaker and teacher, running online orgasm workshops, helping millions of people, running retreats, having my own talk show, being on Oprah, working with high end and celebrity clients, move to a house in Topanga Canyon, be a NY Times & Hay House best selling Author, I mean I could keep going on.... but the point is that my dreams are BIG. Now back to this morning, sitting on my wrap around deck as i over look the canyon of Topanga, I gave thanks to myself for taking ACTION and co-creating with the energy of the Universe for all that is showing up in my life. What was once something so far away it was actually painful to think about it at times, is now the life I am living because I released and let go of control on how to was going to show up and trusted that the more connected to myself I felt, the more pleasure I allowed myself to experience the more open I was to allowing the flow to come right to me of my desires. ALLOW ALLOW ALLOW! Now I am planning several workshops for my upcoming trip to Colombia for my first International teaching and speaking engagements. I also booked a modeling job for Vogue Italia which I didn't do a single things for except for allow myself to be a match for that opportunity by staying active in my embodiment practices and putting myself out there on social media sharing what I love and when I return I have two bookings to be a guest for my work as The Pussy Priestess on popular talk shows. Keep writing your dreams down, create a vision board that reflects as close as possible the life that you desire to create for yourself and put a picture of YOURSELF on the board! Keep the dream alive-Im holding that vision for you! Abracadabra!! The Universe is indeed listening my friends, what are you communicating?  In the world of Tinder, Raya, Grinder, Bumble, Hinged and online dating platforms our sexpecations are at an all time high for both men and women! Lets be real, women love sex just as much as men do but what woman love even more than straight away jumping in the sheets is foreplay and the ecstatic build up! Here's the kicker though, as women we can move from physical world fun into "fantasy land" real quick and begin to activate our own sexpectations and can become very disappointed when we decide to sleep with a man and its less of the " O M G YESSSS" and ends being more like "meh" once the deed is done. What I want to share with you is that it doesn't have to be that way, even with a partner who you know "isnt the one" you can still have great mind blowing love making with them and enjoy the ecstatic act of pleasure and receiving. This actually works both way for men too. So why does it fizzle out instead of sparkle bright into orgasmic bliss when you finally get between the sheets? Enter in our SEXPECTATIONS According to the Urban Dictionary: The state of anticipating or expecting sexual intercourse from a social encounter, be it a date, a party, or a booty call. It describes a period of optimistic waiting that is just shy of a sure thing. Its the feeling of having the thing we crave the most that gives us the most fulfillment. Get present and FEEL into the moment with that chosen someone and be in the NOW allowing the moment to unfold and stop trying to control how you get the feelings you desire and just be open to getting them. Here some juicy tips for changing things up and having more fun connections. Flirt. Get Frisky. Play with your food! Try a few of these juicy delectable favorites of mine: Watermelon + Honey + Mint + Ice cream + Bananas covered in chocolate! Take it outside lovers! Try daytime fun and shift up the lunar night play for some bright solar vibes. It generate more youthful energy between the two of you and brings in new elements that can supercharge your connection. In the water, at the beach, under the trees. The MORE SEX.....the LESS STRESS....Just Don't settle on mediocre love making! |
AuthorI spent many years looking for love in the bottom of a shot glass at endless nightclubs, bars, and events and at a low point in my life I realized that no amount of alcohol, sex, and partying could satisfy my deep appetite for love. I discovered, through this perfectly designed journey of pain, that the love I was seeking was never outside of myself, it was patiently waiting to be reclaimed and unleashed. This Blog is medicine-Its my medicine to anyone who needs and desires it on their personal journey to reclamation. 
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